Happy New Year

Wish everyone I love Happy New Year and get everything they want in their life.

I want to work harder, be more optimistic, be healthier, think more for the others, accept the uncertainties in life and face it with courage in the next year.

No matter good or bad, we have been walking through all together.

091230

Tomorrow, I will go and see Picasso.

I miss Stockholm a lot.

Helsinki is a wet, snowy,cold, grey city.

091226

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Dec 20

Humid. -14.
Christmas market. Half meter white sausages.

Rosenheim.

Survived. Warm tea, home made marmalade and bread. Rich and peaceful Sunday breakfast.
Sunny. Snowy. Cold.

Getting ready to go to Salzburg.

Salzburg, I am coming again.

I didn't know that I would re-visit these places. Not so soon at least.

I don't know what is waiting for me next.
But I will have the patience. And try to breathe, and witness.

Saw the Sunflower

I saw Vincent's most famous sunflower today, though I liked the other one better when he was not in a good condition later.

And another painting of green field with trees. After finishing this painting, one year after, he died.

Ohh Van Gogh. Still remember last time when I saw lots of his collection in Wien, I was stunned.

The brush and the color.

Artists like him, especially in his later life, he is using his life to feel, to paint. Not only simply drawing any more.
When his life ends, his art reaches the peak.

How sad.

But I guess this is life. You have to trade for something you don't have with the thing that you have.
Consciously, or unconsciously.

the second day in MUN

Dec 18,2009, Studentenstadt, Muenchen.
Sunny. Cold. Snowy.

On the BMW building outside, it says "Freude am Fahren". And it was bright all night long.

After sleeping for 12 hours, I am ready to enjoy more about the city.

Yes. I need to be stronger. And I don't cry.

20091216

I saw two stars falling at the edge of the dark blue velvet sky.
It was -22 °C.


I watched the end of the world made up by CGs.

I thought, we should all live the moment.

Munich, I am coming. Again.

This time, happy.

rising

After the continuous conversation for two full nights without any sleep, I finally realized that I am now standing at a crossroad.
And a decision needs to be made.

It is none of any one's business.
I need to think carefully, and choose what is the best for me.
Without doubts, without the peer pressure, without any suggestions from friends or family members, a decision has to be made.

It has been a long process and I have indulged myself sinking inside for already too long.
Now, is the moment.
It is the moment to have a strong motivation, and put all my endeavor into it.
Just like in the old times, I was walking alone in the endless darkness and doubt whether there is an end. Then I found myself standing in the end of the tunnel facing the sunshine right after.

Now, if I want, there will be warms hands waiting for me.


I need to, go for whatever I want.
And it is, my business.

Life is too short after all.
And we only have one chance.

Some words to myself

You need to learn how to be more patient to realize what you really want.

Follow the agenda. Be flexible.

Do not deny. Do not run away.

Face it, and deal with it.

Enjoy.