Saw the Sunflower

I saw Vincent's most famous sunflower today, though I liked the other one better when he was not in a good condition later.

And another painting of green field with trees. After finishing this painting, one year after, he died.

Ohh Van Gogh. Still remember last time when I saw lots of his collection in Wien, I was stunned.

The brush and the color.

Artists like him, especially in his later life, he is using his life to feel, to paint. Not only simply drawing any more.
When his life ends, his art reaches the peak.

How sad.

But I guess this is life. You have to trade for something you don't have with the thing that you have.
Consciously, or unconsciously.

the second day in MUN

Dec 18,2009, Studentenstadt, Muenchen.
Sunny. Cold. Snowy.

On the BMW building outside, it says "Freude am Fahren". And it was bright all night long.

After sleeping for 12 hours, I am ready to enjoy more about the city.

Yes. I need to be stronger. And I don't cry.

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I saw two stars falling at the edge of the dark blue velvet sky.
It was -22 °C.


I watched the end of the world made up by CGs.

I thought, we should all live the moment.

Munich, I am coming. Again.

This time, happy.

rising

After the continuous conversation for two full nights without any sleep, I finally realized that I am now standing at a crossroad.
And a decision needs to be made.

It is none of any one's business.
I need to think carefully, and choose what is the best for me.
Without doubts, without the peer pressure, without any suggestions from friends or family members, a decision has to be made.

It has been a long process and I have indulged myself sinking inside for already too long.
Now, is the moment.
It is the moment to have a strong motivation, and put all my endeavor into it.
Just like in the old times, I was walking alone in the endless darkness and doubt whether there is an end. Then I found myself standing in the end of the tunnel facing the sunshine right after.

Now, if I want, there will be warms hands waiting for me.


I need to, go for whatever I want.
And it is, my business.

Life is too short after all.
And we only have one chance.

Some words to myself

You need to learn how to be more patient to realize what you really want.

Follow the agenda. Be flexible.

Do not deny. Do not run away.

Face it, and deal with it.

Enjoy.

Now, or never

So much hatred. I don't understand, and I don't want to.

Because for me, as I have mentioned so many times, it is always Now, or Never.

the distance between imagination and reality

I was reading the articles from my old blogs this morning. There was this piece very interesting.

I'll translate it into English.

"Always wanted to write something about Vienna.
It is like the soul of the whole Europe.
Or maybe it is just the soul of the Europe in my imagination.

Met one of the rare sunny days.
The thick taste of the sweetness of the famous coffee and the cake.
The beauty left in between my teeth and my tongue kept my heart in Vienna.

It only takes 4 hours by train to go to Praha from Wien. The remains of the downfallen eastern Europe made me sad.
There's no need for the landmark to indicate that it was not in Austria anymore.

Maybe it was because of the impressions I got from the movies of Princess Sissi (1955) I watched in Senior high, Romy Schneider's beautiful face left me great romantic imaginations of Austria and her love life.
Until the moment when I was in schönbrunn and listened to one piece of descriptions of the dairy from Sissi herself about her marriage with King Franz.
"What did a 15-year old child know, only took such a vow, then was sold for a whole life."
But when Franz heard of the news that Sissi was assassinated, he was silent. Then he told his close officer who worked for him, "You really don't know how much I love this woman."

So to say, it is very different from the imagination to the reality of life."

This piece was written when I finished my trip in Germany, Austria and Czech alone last year.
Now I am still touched.
The imagination and the reality is so different that it is always hard to keep the balance and handle the moment when the truth is revealed.
Beautiful Princess Sissi (from the internet)