I dunno.

I always thought it was because of the continuous rainy days.

But today is a sunny day.

I found the thought of " I am tired of my life and I am tired of everything" has been haunting me everyday since the first moment I open my eyes.

I am using all kinds of positive attitudes and thoughts to cope with this powerless feeling.

I can not give in. I can not drown to death.

I want to survive. I need to.