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The weather is driving me crazy.
Anxiety, restlessness have been haunting me day and night.

I am tired.
If everything is in the end empty, why am I living in this world.


I kept listening to the song from Dean Martin and Billie Holiday "Baby It's cold outside".
It fits the environment here with the thick snow outside.

The song is warm. But I am not in the mood.

I want to run away from this country.
Another good friend of mine is getting married in a week. He was sad that I couldn't go to his wedding.

Marriage, really give you the sense of security you want?
I wish you happy.